Sunday, June 23, 2013


Pfftt...and I was supposed to blog more frequent =.=" and be more blunt. Then again, it's difficult to be blunt without being offensive. Let's see. Work has been hectic with last minute orders and changes of deadline. Like is also stressful with a menopausal woman so important to you yet very demotivating at the same time. That aside, I picked up reading again (an average of 2 pages a day) and swimming on my day off! 
Make Up
Break Up

Met many people for the past few months so I gather this topic of relationship is interesting. For the past 6 months I've been reading a lot on relationship with titles vary from 'Does He Still Love You', 'Can The Relationship Be Saved', 'How To Save A Relationship', 'Is This Love Still Worth It' to 'How To Move On' and 'How To Survive A Mean Break Up'. Recently I read up on types of relationship, positive energy, making friends and what interest me the most at the moment: THE ULTIMATE FRIENDZONE.

So yes, it's the infamous term people around has been using. After doing some readings, this is what i gathered:
1. Everybody had been friendzoned by someone before i.e rejected from persuasion.
2. Everybody friendzoned someone before i.e rejected persuasion. 
3. Because of no.1 and no.2, don't get too bitter and learn to move on quickly. 
4. Friendzone could be peaceful or hateful.
Hateful Friendzone: This happened when one felt used or mislead with mixed signal for over a period of time which involved him or her to sacrifice to certain degree. OR him or her is just being a pussy. Personal experience, I've explained countless time to this friend of mine that we are better off as friend because I cannot tolerate his personality as a boyfriend and neither can he take my temper. We are both hot headed. We maintained good friends for over 2 years but with constant more persuasion. Finally he got fed up, unfriend me and delete me from his life forever. My reaction? But I oredi tell you waaaat! Waiiy u angry me? I no lie you and no give false hope also. Some tips on how to avoid? Don't give false hope or blardy mixed signal and come on, be blunt a little bit. If you like someone, keep check if he or she knows it instead of going all the way to the moon then fall in disappointment. 

 Peaceful Friendzone: mutual understanding achieved. Like I said, be frank if you need to find out what's really going on but be prepared for a yes or no. Express your interest without going over the moon really. Treating someone extraordinarily nice meaning treating him or her special without going overboard so you wont get burnt out thinking that whatever you have done got zero return. Once the zone has been declared, maintain the respectable line. Don't be a friend yet trying to do what a girlfriend or boyfriend would do. AND, don't ask your friend to do what a boyfriend or girlfriend ought to do. Be fair to them. This thing takes effort from both side, requiring in depth communication.

For men and women alike. Acceptance of the condition is the first step of moving on.
And yeah, something to end the night. 
Last but not least, don't USE people to your benefits. Yes, this dude or chick may like you but if you sensed their affection that you cannot return, let them know gently. I cannot accept people that take advantage of such situation such as getting them to buy things, doing all the shitty job and all then later drop the bomb. Peace out guys! Seramat mlm.

Monday, June 3, 2013

Turning Over A New Leaf

I wasn't sure if I wanted to start a new blog or to continue with this one. I read the posts I've written for the past 2 years. They were all so superficial, so much sugar coating I wasn't sure who was writing them -_- I guess I was more honest a few years ago. Oh well, I think I'll probably revert to my high school writing style: JUST SAY IT. 

I revamped the site with colours. I needed the change, I've been too...structured. It has been an awful 2012 and awful first few months of my 2013. I was so depressed that I went on treatment for two months. I was told that I needed high level of serotonin to function. The meds kept me going for a while but it also made me drowsy and stoic. So I turn to my old best friend - cheese and chocolate. Dairy products make me happy <3 div="">

"I fucking hate you. Damn you! Shit la you!" 
Three short sentences which changed my life. It hurt real deep and the pain and scar will stay forever. I guess I will not truly move in without coming to term with this incident. I was dumped via a phone call.  For two months I almost died from low self-esteem, I felt ugly, dirty, worthless and useless. Nevertheless, I was not stupid. I reached out for help and slowly, painfully, I recover. I'm still in the process of healing. I've decided to pick up my life where I left it 3 years ago. I opened up a little and tell myself to do what makes me happy, I don't need to please anyone anymore especially people who cannot accept me for who I am.

I'm no longer a pious Christian but occasionally I whisper a prayer for I don't know what. I'm thankful for a few good friends who supported me through the opening of my shop in March till today. I've met many people ever since. Some beautiful people who showed me rainbows in life and yes, i meet arses too. All in all, I still love my current career. Yes, it's a career for me. Not just a day to day job. I may not have a DR/SN/IR or whatever title to my name now but I got goals in life and I want to achieve it.

Right, warming up on first post. Will move on and write more on life stories and hopefully, interesting stories for read. Okay, let's give God a little credit :3

1. Thank God for awesome friend like Ps. Yu Li - hugs!
2. Thank God for boardgames and RPGs on Friday - meet new amazing people!
3. Thank God for the gifts. Yes, all that I can do right, craft, perform, my ideas...I give credit  to Him. He is my muse, no joke. He moves my hands and makes me learn.
4. Thank God for mom. She has been tolerating my shyt a lot yet helped a lot with my work. She is awesome yo when it comes to hairdo.

The world can give up on you but you live on so long you dont give up on yourself. Signing out for tonight, cheers~